Karen Dennison

Poet and artist

Poems

From the anthology so too have the doves gone

Praxis

I have stood in overgrown queues for bread.
I have waited in snow and ice and rain.
I have prayed for the dying and the dead.

I have ached for a son’s return in vain.
I have looked into the lifeless eyes
of the living, seen the strong insane.

I have heard – believed – too many lies.
A silence weaves each day and night,
ravels and knots our collective cries.

It begins with hunger, a bloodless fight,
the courage of mothers, daughters, wives,
the city domes and their dying light.
I have lost – I have lived – too many lives.

From Counting Rain

Counting Rain

She kneels at the window.
Each splash is a dull surrender,
a colourless dawning.

She seeks a pattern
in the chaos of grey,
traces with her finger a languid cross.

She starts to count but her eyes
roll down the pane, following
the jagged prayer of a single drop.

As it reaches its unanswered end,
she lifts her face to a godless sky,
and begins from one again.

Moon Landing

Your belly is rounded, palimpsest of moon.
Feet-up, you wait, eyes scanning the flickering screen.

The grainy transmissions are like the silvered crater
of my skull, the muffled chambers of my heart.

Through egg-shell skin, I see
a hazy light, turn like a heliotrope.

As he takes his momentous step, you feel
me kick. We’re almost weightless, he and I,

suspended between worlds. But I resist
the pull of earth, the first breathless glimpse,

begin one last slow-motion somersault,
not yet ready to breathe for myself.

Rehearsal

Home from lessons, she splinters
her mouth, presses a fork against
the tight membrane of her lips.

She curls up on her bed and shrinks
inside her shell, wrapping her face
with embryonic wings.

Fracture lines spread from her mouth
to her eyes. In her sleep
brittle tears scratch her cheeks.

Morning is a film of skin. The jigsaw
of her face lies on her pillow. She stretches
the pieces, seals a smile.

Today at school she’ll rehearse her laugh.

Leaving

I left the safety of your arms
for the vacuum of outer space.

I looked back to see you mouthing
like a fish. I couldn’t read your lips.

My blood did not boil but
seethed beneath the skin.

My hands swelled, filling
the space left by yours.

I stared into the sun.
The last thing I remember, tears
were simmering in my eyes and your name

had boiled on my tongue.

Releasing You

I wind and wind, feel the pressure build.
The key-hole is empty, its key long lost.
Ivory paint is chipped off pale wood,
but the red rose is perfectly furled.
Opening the lid, your eyes are my eyes.

A ballerina in a skirt of dusty net
jerks to life; her clockwork pirouette
leads me to a dressing table, a sunlit bed,
stories of brooches, pearls, and rings.
I lift the velvet tray, watch the spool spin;
its spikes pluck the teeth of a silver comb
playing Für Elise in doll’s house notes.

Lowering the lid, I catch your scent,
breathe you in, and out again.

Guilt

She wrapped her guilt in silk, buried it
in hard earth. Each slicing of the spade
jarred her bones. She dragged a concrete slab,
piled up bricks on top. She scattered flowers
to hide the smell; no fox would dig up
her shame. She tended the plot every day,
speaking to herself. Finally, she stopped;

brushed off wilted roses, un-piled the bricks
and removed the stone, let weeds grow
from remorse. Years later she unearths
a lacework of roots, tattered scraps of silk
and bones of forgiveness.

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